Today is the second day of my now 8th attempt to diet since I gave birth to my second son 9 months ago. Another blog today gave me the inspiration to write this post ( Thank you Muslim Mama if your reading). I figured out why my previous attempts at dieting have failed before, I will admit to something that I probally have known a long time "I am addicted to food". Kinda funny to say aloud and even read because I guess becuase people dont take this addiction seriously. They think come on how can you be addicted to food thats just silly. But like any addiction it can be just as fatal if there is no intervention my addiction to food can lead to Diabetes , heart disease, obesity and even death. So dos'nt make it any different from a drug or alcohol addiction now does it. I am hoping in facing and admitting to my addiction Ican now begin to figure out how to overcome it. Just writing these sentences feels theraputic, like I have been harboring a dirty little secrete.
I have had a love hate relationship with food my whole life, I love food and then hate myself when I over indulge in it. I remember as a little girl watching my mother spoon my fav dinner of spaghetti into my plate and being jealous that her and my father got bigger portions.. There is a caribbean idealogy that chubby children are a status symbol as poorer countrymen were unable to feed their family and the image of thin or malnurished children were all over the countryside in Haiti. So a chubby child was a siggn of your wealth and social security therefore children were overfed and always encouraged to finish everything on their plates.
I cant blame my current state entirely on this but I do believe how a person is nurtured contributes
to their personal development. Nonetheless I am leaving my past behind for a brighter and hopefully thinner future. I will keep this blog updated through this journey.
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Salam Alaikum-- Old habits are hard to break and food is one of the hardest. Can't say that I'm anywhere near where I need to be regarding food, but my advice is just keep pushing on and never give up!
ReplyDeletewishing you luck in your life journey!
ReplyDeleteI really enjoyed reading your honesty! :) I thought about the healthy things I ate throughout the week and how this weekend was a total failure and that I'll be making up for this week lol.
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